I’m a Swedish woman, happy with my life, with a nice family, great friends, a good job and many interests. I’m a bit curvy, with rather big, soft breasts (I guess that’s “saggy udders” to the Barbie fascists), but in good physical shape because I enjoy working out, yoga, walks and dancing. Tiee is (of course) not my real name, but rather who I am or want to be. Just like an employee is employed and a trainee is being trained, a tiee is, or desires to be, tied up.
I enjoy sex and have been sexually active since before my teens, not as some kind of victim of abuse, but as someone who consciously sought out what I found I enjoyed. Being tied up and helpless was one such thing, and was part of my life long before my sexual awareness started growing and connecting the two. Today, I can’t really imagine a relationship without a partner who enjoys tying me up, making me helpless, playing with me, teasing and tormenting me in inventive and wicked ways, and using me as their sex toy. Despite having enjoyed intimacy and kinks with other girls, my preference for men are so strong that I regard myself as hetero rather than bi.
I enjoy being tied up for several reasons. I like the freedom from decisions, responsibility and guilt, because you know, nice girls don’t do, or at least don’t like and desire, some naughty things. I also like the physical sensations of strain and immobility, pressure and rubbing from the restraints, like some kind of yoga and massage. I like the helplessness forcing me to accept and endure things I might otherwise refuse, thereby depriving me of some experiences I might come to cherish. I also actually enjoy some hard play, because for me, some of it is more intense stimulating rather than actually painful, and that tolerance seem to increase the more aroused I am.
Some people into labeling things would probably call me a slave, submissive and/or masochist. However, I am a free spirit and at least mentally strong enough to actually scare many men with fragile egos. I also have no desire to submit and be obedient, but prefer being forced and used while helpless, even if I usually need to submit at least long enough to have my hands restrained to give my partner the upper hand. I’m really not fond of pain or suffering for its own sake, but can appreciate it as a spice and as a reminder of how helpless I am to resist while tied and helpless.
My favorite restraints are hemp or jute ropes tied in the Japanese styles of shibari (artful), kinbaku (strict), hojojutsu (formal) and semenawa (tormenting), but I can enjoy just about any kind of restraints that can keep me securely tied up and helpless: ropes and cords of most types, leather cuffs and straps, metal cuffs and chains, zipties, adhesive tape, plastic wrap, fishing line, steel wire and even barbed wire if used in a somewhat sane way. I also enjoy secure and efficient gags and hoods, not the ones which can easily be spat out or which only slightly garbles speech. I also fancy mittens and chastity devices, even if I prefer the latter a bit less chaste by securing the lower orifices are kept well stuffed and plugged.
I enjoy many strenuous positions, like elbows tied together behind the back, the reverse prayer with hands tied high up back between the shoulder blades (although I can only handle the strict variants of it well for maybe 20-30 minutes), and legs spread very wide apart leaving the crotch area open and vulnerable. I also really enjoy having my breasts tied tight around their bases to make them swell and bulge, as well as having my crotch tied with ropes digging deep between my labia and ass cheeks, pressing on and rubbing my clit and other sensitive areas there, and having my toes and the blades of my feet tied, since they are pretty erogenous to that kind of stimulation.
Many things that are supposed to be painful are really more intensely stimulating to me, like moderate spankings and whippings, especially on ass, breasts and pussy, but I have even been able to orgasm from having the soles of my feet moderately caned. When I’m already hot and my breasts are tied tight, they can handle surprisingly hard treatment of many kinds. I also truly enjoy vacuum, nooses, electricity and many kinds of clamps on my nipples, vacuum and nooses on my clit, and also moderate clamps on clit and labia. Sharp objects pressing into the skin without penetrating it, like thumbtacks, can be a real turn-on, while piercing with needles usually are neither very painful nor very stimulating.
In general, I can handle most things that don’t cause extreme pain, severe or permanent injury or scarring, even if they may not be all that stimulating or otherwise turn-ons to me. That’s also part of why I’m no big fan of piercings or tattoos, since I don’t have the urge to decorate my body like that, and actually see it as a kind of permanent injury. Still, if I had a partner who really liked e.g. intimate piercings, I wouldn’t mind getting them for him.
Perceived or real peril can be a real turn-on for me, like taut nooses around my neck (although not real strangulation), plastic bags over my head (not for long or perforated to permit limited breathing), electricity (as threat or non-lethal, like TENS, cattle prods or electric fence generators), forced balancing or other situations where loss of control can result in severe pain.
When it comes to sex in general, I’m pretty liberal and could probably call myself “trisexual”, willing to try most things at least once. Vaginal, anal and oral, and I really love giving head, even deep-throating, once I learned to control my gag reflex. Having my pussy stuffed and stretched by fisting, large dildos or other objects is a turn-on, while my anal is more “in training” in that respect. I also found my urethra is erogenous and have a little experience with catheters and sounds there. An incident with an intrauterine device made me aware that my cervix might hold some potential as well, but that remains mainly an idea and food for some fantasies so far.
When it comes to pornography, I’m tolerant and can enjoy some, mainly involving girls strictly tied up and used or tormented by guys, both as “education”, inspiration and purely for turn-on. I even found a few favorite “riggers” (the ones tying people up), like Eric Cain of Futile Struggles, Jim Hunter of Hunter’s Lair, the nameless rigger of Brendas Bound, and JJ Plush of Born to be Bound (female and also tiee). I also like some erotic art themed on girls tied up hard and tormented, like that of DanLaura.